First off, being that today is September 11th... 5 years from THE 9/11,
I must mention that it has not been forgotten in my heart and in my
mind. I do have to say though that I'm sick of people profiting from
this tragedy with movies and the like. I'm also tired of all the people
telling the stories of where they were when it happened and how they
felt. I'm talking about the people who were not affected directly.
Yes, this awful event hit us all and we should feel free to express our
feelings but I think much of what happened has been lessened by people
who are focusing on themselves and how *they* were affected. Yes, I
remember where I was and how I felt but no, I'm not going to talk about
that. This day is not to remember how *I* was affected by the tragedy.
It should be used as a day to remember and honor those that were lost to
us on that September morning five years ago. It should be a day to give
thanks for the heroes that stepped forward. It should be a day to come
together no matter what your political views are about this country. Go
back to bashing the opposite political party tomorrow. We were all
stunned by 9/11, but it's not about where you were five years ago. Who
the heck cares that you were at the diner getting coffee when so many
others perished. Maybe I'm saying this wrong, and I don't mean to
belittle anyone's response to this day, but I'd like to see the focus
switched back to where it matters. Those that were lost, those that
were left behind and those that helped save lives... these people
deserve our thoughts and prayers. Many of us knew people in those
towers, on the planes or in the Pentagon and to me it makes more sense
to think about them... Not about where I was. Where I was and what I
was doing are insignificant compared to everything that happened that
day. Others may disagree, but I'm putting my thoughts toward the people
that were killed and the loved ones that they left behind. I'm focusing
on those that rushed in to do what they could and those that are now
fighting for this country. Whether I agree with the war or not, that's
besides the point. Those soldiers are doing their jobs and deserve
better than they've received from many people. I have to admire anyone
who fights for what they believe in... Even if I disagree with their
stand, I appreciate their strength of character for backing up their
beliefs with actions.


Ok, I really hadn't meant to go on like that. I wanted a quick
statement to explain why I wasn't going to give the obligatory answer to
the "Where were you on 9/11?"

Today's been a long day work wise. I did manage to finish quite a bit
of my reading for tomorrow night's class. I finished the main text and
then read the Malcolm X and the Helen Keller articles. Now I have three
more articles to read by tomorrow. Not too shabby.

Man, it's so hot here in the customer service room. Ick. Wendy is
weird. She says that she's freezing. I don't know what's wrong with
her! I guess it must be that she has no fat on her bones to keep her
warm. Who knows.

Tonight the Vikings play. Yippeeeee! And how about those Twins!?! Two
games out? Love it! Keep it up boys!

I'm so tired. I slept horribly last night. Typical for a Sunday night
I guess.

I really and truly hope that Ron calls Sears or other places today about
a job. He has to get back to work soon! I have no idea how we're going
to pay the mortgage. Our savings is completely gone now and we're
already 11 days late. I don't get paid again until Friday. This is not
a good feeling to be so low in funds. I hate it and I'm so tired of not
being able to afford things. I bring home nice money but I can't spend
it to buy myself new clothing or anything. Most of my clothes is ages
old and falling apart. I know it's not all Ron's fault but I can't help
but blame him a little bit. If he'd get back to work, we'd have a
second income and that could help pay the bills. Our cable was 5
minutes away from being shut off on Saturday night. Ron finally managed
to finagle the payment onto a credit card and thus saved it from
happening. I hate that. I have never in my life been so late with
payments as we've been the past month or two. Plus I had to max out my
credit cards with school tuition and books. So I have no "emergency"
credit available anywhere now. Heaven forbid that anything happens.
We'll be screwed ten ways from Tuesday.

Ok, enough complaining about that. Life sounds so horrible when I read
back over my words and yet I know that it could be worse and I should be
thankful for what I do have.

I'm so sleepy. Most of this LJ entry probably makes no sense. I guess
I'll send it through and get back to doing my work.